Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Life's A Beach... Sometimes

So, I'm on vacation this week at the beach.  I'm not staying on the ocean, but that's okay.  Just getting away is good for the soul.  I've found on this autoimmune journey that I have to take time out for me.  I have learned to say no.  I have to accept that I probably will not ever be able to go like I did when I was 25 or even 30.  Some people may ask, "why do you have to accept that?"  To those people, I say, I don't want or need to go like that.  I was working 2 jobs, smoking a pack or pack and a half of cigarettes a day, and going out on the 1 or 2 nights a week I was not working.  I weighed over 300 pounds.  I now crave a night at home in my snuggie, with my hubby, and watching a movie while enjoying a glass of wine with some crab dip.  Living that old life helped drive me to some of the lows I had with my Hashimoto's disease.  It also helped create some anger issues that I had to seek therapy for when I was at my lowest point. 
I'm on vacation this week.  I've napped 3 or 4 times already and it's only Wednesday.
Peace.

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